Career Directions and Passions

Last month I spoke to a career counselor who I found really helpful. I’ve been feeling very directionless and uninspired when it comes to my career future. I’m about to (finally) get my license as professional counselor. I just didn’t know what I wanted to do after that. I know I need to make more money. Not tons of money, just more money. “Enough” money. My counselor had of course stated that going into private practice as a counselor was definitely the elephant in the room and we needed to decide if that’s the direction I wanted to take or if we were going to take it off the table. Honestly, going into private practice scared the crap out of me. What if I fail? What if I get no clients? What if I can’t support myself? What if my clients hate me? Who would want to see me anyway? What do I have to offer?! There were all these huge mental hurdles getting in the way. I was also extremely concerned about burn out. I’ve been hitting that a lot at my job because it’s so repetitious. I’ve also been very frustrated with the lack of control that I have with working with a large institution. I dislike having to be here for set hours even when there’s no work to do. I dislike the office politics. I want more control! I want to choose my working hours and make decisions that are best for me and my family.

I actually really enjoy counseling. I love being in session with my clients. It does make me nervous at times. I do fear being unable to help someone, or saying the wrong thing, or just not being the best that I can be for them. Choosing to continue in a career of private practice would mean facing those fears, daily.

On the information sheet I filled out for my counselor, it asked what I liked to do in my leisure time. At the time I was filing it out, the only thing that could come to my head was all the stuff I did BEFORE I had a baby and how I have no time to do any of that stuff anymore. Then later, I asked my counselor how she kept from getting burned out. She said that she finds the things that energizes her and does more of it. That marinated in me for a few days and suddenly I started thinking about what I actually DO in my leisure times these days that fulfill me.

Connecting with other mothers.

I realized that since the birth of my daughter, I have blogged about motherhood, I have set up a facebook group to connect other mothers going through the ups and downs of motherhood, I have written a guide to pumping breastmilk at work, and I created a 30 day daily e-mail of encouragement that I send out to all my friends for the first 30 days after they have a child. Supporting mothers is clearly important to me. I feel passionate about it. I suffered from severe baby blues or even mild postpartum depression and I just felt like I didn’t know how hard it was actually going to be. I felt so unprepared and alone at times. If it weren’t for this blogging community, I think I’d feel like a freak at times.

So, I’ve decided that I want to set up a practice with an emphasis on mothers/want to be mothers/women, etc. I’d like to create more support networks and programs. Possibly developing an online component. I want to do this.

This is going to take time. I have a goal of getting things set up for next summer and perhaps reducing my hours at work next summer and transitioning toward a private practice. I have a big vision in my head but I struggle with the details sometimes. Though, for the first time in a long time I actually feel excited about something. I actually feel like I want to accomplish something. That feels good. It feels hopeful.


One thought on “Career Directions and Passions

  1. I’m so happy to hear this, you have so much to offer and being passionate about something really is important in making it something you can be happy doing long term! Good for you and good luck with everything!

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